A full day yesterday leads to a day of rest. I worked for the first time since my knee replacement, it was a good day, but tiring, Then I had a meeting until 9pm. All of this good and I feel I was ready, but it was tiring. I will rest today. Although I have a hard time resting, I feel like I need to be doing something, somethings busy. Something to slow my mind to a low murmur.
I am missing things of the past, trying to feel the reality of where I am at right now. Find acceptance inside myself. I am losing weight, seeing that is good, but knowing I am older, my body has changed with my health situation and I am looking for a way to be accepting of this me who I am now, right now at this minute.