Wow, things keep moving along. I graduated today from my physical therapy. My knee is doing great! Healing and bending like a champ, I think I may be stable for a time. I hope and pray this is the case and I am feeling less fearful about the positive things I am feeling in my body. My daughter and I are getting along better right now too. But NO expectations. She is after all a teenager.
Not everything is perfect, by no means, but I have learned I do not get it all. I am however, feeling a sense of satisfaction with the portion I do get.
There has been a theme running in the background lately. A continual reminder that God is big enough to take on the messiness of life and turn it into blessing. I look back at so many situations in my life that at the time seemed insurmountable, and today they are some of my biggest sources of strength and growth. These messes have shaped me into the person that I am today. A person that can understand, relate and reach out to others in ways that are totally unique to me.
The part of this theme that I find amazing, is that in spite of many of these messes being negative and dark, they have been transformed into a place of triumph and growth. God can take even the dark places and use them. WOW! My trust in him wavers so often and I just take over in my own “wisdom” and try to fix things all by myself. I was told by a friend the other day to look back at some of the hard times and see if they had not been used to His good. I must say, that it is the case. I am a better person for they way God has put things back together.
I know that we have hands and feet to put them to use. I know we are supposed to do some work, not just sit back and wait for God to do it all. But when I am in over my head, he can totally lift the weight from me so I can catch my breath. My load can be lighter with His help. I am grateful for friends and the reminders of what is my responsibility and what is not within my control.