Category Thoughts About Life

Digging

It was therapy day, I think my therapist’s goal in life is to get me to cry. We joke about it, but it is not all bad. Crying is very cleansing and it helps me know I am not dead inside. I feel things deeply, so deeply that it can be overwhelming. I ask a lot […]

A mother’s love?

Today is my oldest daughter’s 22nd birthday. I’m filled with joy, I’m filled with awe, I’m filled with wonder, I’m filled with love and more than that, I’m filled with a knowledge of the miraculous. But, with those wonderful feelings… a sadness persists. A sadness that creeps into my heart and turns to anger. Turns […]

What??

  That face you make when you have had a break through during therapy and you do not know what to do with the information…  

All Yours

What can you do with feelings when they over run you, when they bombard you with ferocity? My eyelids burn with the pressure of unshed tears. My heart aches. I have no power to change what assails me. I cry out as David did in the Psalms. I ask God to take away the burden, […]

It Matters

I have had my blog for two years. I started this journey because I had to do something to address the overwhelming need inside me to speak to the world. As I have walked the path to use my voice, I have somehow quieted. I always thought I would find more and more to say. […]

A Christmas Gift to Remember

The Christmas season has finally wound down and I feel like I can finally relax a bit. When you are married to a pastor and work in the church office, Christmas is actually the busiest time of the year. Easter is also a very busy time, however it does not come with as many expectations […]

Tis’ the Season

Tis the season to be… Some would say jolly, some might say caring or kind or giving. I say it is the season of waiting, of expectation, of hope. That is what Advent is all about. It is the time before Christmas when we remember that a baby is coming. A very special baby. One that […]

Driven

I am driven. Moved to do more, be more, step up and make a difference. The problem is I don’t know where to begin, what to do to make this huge difference I feel compelled to make. As I grow older, I often notice a sense that I am missing something. But, when I honestly evaluate all I […]

Thankful

This year feels like it is not really Thanksgiving. Half of my family will be out of town. My daughter who is the vegetarian and on a perpetual “healthy eating” kick does not want to have a feast. So what does that mean for the holiday? A day off to put me totally behind and […]

“Crawling”

Do you ever have those days when you wake up with eyes swollen, puffy and red due to a crying jag from the night before? Sometimes it is because of a wonderful or wonderfully sad book I have been reading late into the night, or because of a mood I am in due to what […]